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2011-11-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

Just dropping by to say hi. I thought this place no longer exist. Its funny when I looked back at the posts. Things indeed have changed over the past year. A lot.

Im finally into my finally year of studies and am bored of it! ugh. partying and chilling is now part of my everyday rountine which I have never failed to miss! Did everyone enjoyed your halloween? I had a scary one. USS for me is holy mama scary FOR ME. I bet many got scared there but, the rides are just simply awesome! I cant wait to head back there with my besties in the DAYTIME. Hopefully before the end of 2011.

Projects and essays are due within this 2 weeks as im still as chill as a cucumber. I hope I'll get panick attack and start knowing the danger of not completing my assignments on time. Im just so into the holiday mood now. Holidays are just after these essays submission. muahahahah! :x

Meanwhile, I'll just force myself to leave this God forsaken place and head back to my oh-glorious-essay-papers.

2010-07-19T20:45:00.000+08:00

somehow i feel like blogging today and so im here! :D guess no one would read it too.

aww..its the start of new sem today and im into 3rd yr le!! time to be a senior and feel OLD :'( holiday pass by so quickly and i missed Japan so much! the rice, i can just plainly have it w/o getting sick of it and all the other awesome food and desserts! i love their fashion and the sceneries. everything abt Japan!! oh man, im SO gg back again soon! wtched despicable me twice yet i nv grew bored of it. IT'S SO FLUFFY! IT'S SO FLUFFY IM GG TO DIE!! :D and the little yellow adorables. could i just bring one of them home to play?? And yup. i volunteered for ndp usher this yr. wanted to have an experience and the ppl there are just fun! though its tiring and the committment level is heavy :S hope the weather will be just fine throughout and ppl, PLEASE BE NICE TO US AND DONT BE FUSSY! ur didnt buy the tickets afterall and were choosen to attend so be grateful! we are also only doing our roles given.

alrighty. time for me to watch my anime le! toodles!

2010-03-05T00:44:00.003+08:00

i think im gonna stop blogging soon. have no time for tis and many things i wanna let it be private. >.< school has been busy as usual and i've somehow lost interest in blogging for now. if i feel like blogging den i'll come over for a chat ba :) oh ya. im damn excited for de japan trip wid my family!!! finally,after 10 yrs. :S alright,

BYE!! :)

2010-01-15T00:01:00.002+08:00

omg. today, i saw a freaking HUGE dog ard my estate. when i say huge, i really mean H-U-G-E!! i did rmb tat my bro spoke of huge sized dogs quite long ago..and i couldnt believe it really exist. he said those can be up to the size and height of a horse! today,it was proven. i really saw it and was totally shocked. i've nv seen this kind of dog before. wat's more strolling along my estate which i've been living for the past 20 yrs?!I CANT BELIEVE IT!! N-O. i cant find the picture of it online currently but if i DO EVER see it again, i'll ask the owner abt it.

nie's lesson's gonna be dry now that we're starting to have more theoractically lessons. a qn from cecily made me dumb founded and mind go blank. "wat kind of teacher do u expect yourself to be when u enter the school?" you may think it's easy. cause we were once students or even am one now thus knows what to expect from a teacher and think can even do better than them. YOU'RE WRONG. cause i do think the same all this while! AND, drawing it out on a piece of paper is even harder! trust me.

went for cell just now. can say is a total new environment. afterall i've been in east zone ever since i came to accept Christ since '03..not to hide the truth in fear of been confronted, i dun think i'll be attending cell after today. not saying that it wasn't enjoyable today. i enjoyed.but i dun expect anymore from them. after all those nonsense. and i dun think im able to commit myself to attend regularly despite my heart that is still for God. if my currently leader dunno whats wrong with us for now, i really wonder what are they trying to hide..so stop trying to even began to drag me for more services and commitments before i turn nasty. trying to be nice for now. :)

AND darn that ass teacher. no school tmr as its open house yet still insist on having lesson as per normal..hard-up gay. go home and sort out ur glorious months ago certs lah. nothing but peanuts. know nuts still wanna teach..curses!!

time for my nightly routine!! i need to practice sleeping early for my health's sake. always having hard times waking up early in the morning for lessons this week. exhausted. chaos~!!

2010-01-13T23:35:00.003+08:00

wee~!!

finally i am able to download apps on my itouch w/o cash! just tat its a lil' irritating sometimes cox of the waiting time during installation and the sudden no internet connection when it's almost completed..other than these im satisfied :D happy! more games to PLAY.

timetable is just so shitty. today,i jux had a 6 hrs break in between and thus i head back home. slept and headed back to sch.hate tis rountine..those who encountered the same situation as me will surely understand how i feel :'( and best part is i just only get to know that tmr there's lesson over at nie. why am i grumbling? cause it starts at 0930 A.M!! i need a freaking hour an a half to get there! then ofcourse my sleep is disturbed. :'( not happy. VERY.

okie.done with my rantings. :D gotta catch some sleep le! my mattress is calling for me :D

2010-01-11T00:59:00.002+08:00

omg. school will start TODAY. but at 3pm :D gonna start my busy lifestyle again and go crazy abt my assignments! heard tat today students will be collecting back their O level results! all de best! im jux reminded of the days whereby i totally cant sleep weeks before collecting mine. it's damn early tis yr. now is jan onli leh~

right now, im nervous for tat few friends of mine..haha! bet they cant sleep the whole night ba! ending off! my head's spinning de whole night. damn. guess i slept too much?? :P

2010-01-05T01:44:00.002+08:00

its way pass new yr!! and the first day tat my sis attending a secondary school. she came back complaining tat she didnt make any friend..cox she dunno how to -.-next week will be my turn. super sian..but excited at de same time! haha!!:P

have everybody enjoyed ur holiday?? i have! although i wasted quite alot away..my new yr resolution for 2010 is to get good results and slim down!! family healthy and harmony! and unexpected things to happen in a good way. hah.and i finally get to talk to her.. :)) and guess wat? im finally off from east zone. kinda sian..i havent even give my reply and already got a confirmation. -.-

OH. today went for fish spa before my first drum lesson. it was fun!!! was damn scare initially. seeing the WHOLE LOT of fish swimming up! took me awhile to place my legs into the tank. and went screaming the next minute cox very ticklish, gross and indescribable emotions. think the shop almost came crashing down cox of the scream and steph's arm almost break by my squeezing. :P really felt like massaging in the end.like when ur legs go numb?? photos next time :D drum was okie..jux kinda loud for me now..and not used to rhythmic instruments.. a whole new experience. pray tat i can cope when sch starts :S okie okie. gg to sleep le :D

2009-12-28T13:27:00.003+08:00

i almost forgotten abt this blog of mine!! been too occupied with animes and events gg on :S anyone got anywhere to go out on 31st?? ask me along!!! i dun wanna squeeze on the rooftop watching pathetic fireworks again :((

2009-11-30T00:28:00.003+08:00

i ruined my ipod in water bucket yesterday.
my phone's keypad went crazy today and had to be sent to hospital.
i've got myself an itouch today.
but have to pay myself :S
i jux went for a buffet wid family and am bloated to the max.

the end. :))

2009-11-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

not been blogging for almost a month le. and finally, ITS HOLIDAY!! :DD since last week lah.. haha. but was dealing with some very very terrible struggle which i regret watching tat movie. i swear not to watch any of it anymore. no matter who i'll tell them to scram off and get a live. im still scare now..it's tat serious. im gg bonkers soon if i dun get thru in these 2 nights. mental torture. God, u've got to help me no matter wat.

assessment wasnt tat good nor bad. i hope tat i would be able to get better grades then 1st yr. ofcourse. no more Cs and Ds. i pray. things happening here and there..fears and tears. and i went to ice skate for the first time!! haha!! nice experience lah..really envy those who can skate on land and ice well..its shiok to skate freely and beautifully when u have de skills.

alright. im gg to bed le.need to calm my mental down..

2009-10-28T22:39:00.002+08:00

i've finally got a grade B after my one yr plus of study in nafa!! damn happy! :D

2009-10-15T01:18:00.004+08:00

oh great.

a humogous cockroach in the sink jux scared the hell outta me when i wanted to wash my cup. and so,i took my best friend(onli for this particular area) out and spray viciously at it and thus it passed away like tis. :D luckily tis roach cant fly or i'll be throwing my cup and everything else at it.

not to forget, dear's birthday is jux over!! havent give him a present yet :P soon,soon. happy sweet 21st my dearest! :D

AND.i've finally reached my 100th post!! *clap clap*

2009-10-09T00:38:00.003+08:00

hah! birthdays,birthdays. celebrated jov's and esther's. shall upload photos here ONE DAY. but if ur cant wait anymore, jux head over to my fb den! it's all there. and i love my dslr. clear and nice images :D

i need to get to work soon! no sense of urgency lah. indesign to be handed in on mon yet i jux played dragonica and onli to download de trial version now -.- so DEAD. havent touch on 3D and nie.. ah~~feeling so drowsy. jux wanna waste my time away doing nothing now.. haha! :P

okie.tis is my vow.not to play dragonica until all de projects are done! which is like nov?? :s i hope im able to resist. dun get it y im so addicted to it also..

haix..still uploading photos and downloading trial..damn freaking long lah..shall wait..till de cows come home.

2009-09-30T01:12:00.002+08:00

sunday went for jov's birthday gathering. FINALLY 19!! for how long have i waited for tis day?? muahaha!! took tons of pics. esther,daryl and denise jux cant stop taking my cam and snap pics everywhere. hees. i'll upload de photos MAYBE on weekends? kinda lazy now since i've become addicted to dragonica. O.o i noe it's -.- but i'll be bored of it soon. when my projects r gg to pile up.very soon. oh well..off to bed i go. dun miss me!! :D

2009-09-26T02:09:00.003+08:00

gosh. i need to stop being so whiney!! tat's wat my friends say. :s and i DO realise tat sometimes i am. thanks for all the toleration. i'll try to stop whiney lah~ :D

hees! its jux a random post. it suddenly jux went through my mind and thinking of typing it out. :P jux finished my drama. well, ending wasnt wat i wanted it to be. sheesh! im kinda disappointed man. anyone to intro me any nice dramas to watch?? i've got a whole lot of shows to choose from but dunno which is nice to watch.

and tis is gonna be another busy weekend. i still havent started on indesign sia. based on my working speed,i doubt i'll produce a good work by monday. opps. i'll tryyy..

one thing to be glad of.i onli have 3 days of sch and 4 straight days of rest & play! need to start saving!!

2009-09-23T01:49:00.005+08:00

wee~!! im dead tired and jux transferred ALL my photos up on com. damn tiring to take photo for like 4 hrs?? plus the walking and cramps is killing me! i wonder how did i managed to survive throughout the whole day..hmm~

oh well! to end off tis sweet short post, let ur ppl enjoy some pics ba :D

2009-09-22T01:34:00.002+08:00

burrrr. im feeling kinda cold now early in the wee hours of the morning knitting in front of the com. have the urge for a nice cup of hot chocolate now! but gg to sleep any moment. the extra holiday seem to pass fast. my 2nd terms starting tmr and it's gonna get hectic once again wid more project to submit for mid yr assessment. haixxxxxxx~~~still got photos not taken yet lehhh...

OHOH. went to orchard central mall wid sam intending to take some pictures before ending the day but my cam jux died on me de very last min :( AND i saw a VERY SUPER DUPER UBER CUTEEE mouse! its called egg mouse and cost 40 bucks. *hint hint* i want it badly. its jux so hard to resist tis cute little thingy and i so wanna have one to keep. so, anyone? xD

often, it jux feel so tiring to stop myself from caring abt u.

2009-09-16T10:09:00.006+08:00

wee~! so long nv update le~

schedule was hectic as usual wid works pilling up.

FINALLY completed my photography :D

bought my DSLR and laptop!!! :D:D:D

learnt how to knit!! :D

kenna infection and some old ppl sickness :(

went rollerblading at east coast yest

AND gg to the zoo tmr! :D

however i still cant accept the fact tat i got old ppl sickness!! :'(

this is my 2 weeks "break" from sch.
but i still enjoyed :D

see my HAPPY face??

2009-08-27T01:33:00.003+08:00

im addicted to sewing my cross stitch everyday. and the best part is, i didnt touch my work and they are piling up! :( need to chiong like a crazy woman now before my term break starts the week after next :(

DAMN. y mux there be essay?? i love essays~i love essays~i love essaysss~~ ITS JUX SO HARD TO LOVE YOU!!! :'(

2009-08-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

shits! out de whole weekend and i havent done a single work. although i have some ideas gg thru my mind..and not to mention practicing my beloved guitar! suddenly feel so tired and works are starting to cramp up. how nice ~.~ got an essay to do..3D model to make..guitar and painting to practice..nie hw..oh man..not forgetting the upcoming birthdays..aug-2 sep-3 oct-4 nov-7 dec-4 it's enough to burn a VERY BIG hole in my pocket. oh well.work first! HAHA :P

went to see da vinci's exhibition jux now wid rx,zx,sw n sam. was kinda interesting to me but dun like de itchy hands touching the exhibits and obviously TALL ppl standing at the front of the screen to watch de videos. dead beat and gg to turn in early for de nite..sweetdreams ppl~! :D

2009-08-12T23:21:00.006+08:00

wee~~!! had a GREAT weekend!! although sat was abit boring cox stayed at home till nite and went to giant. bought lots of sweets and ended up nagged by mom cox it's ard 30 plus bucks worth -.- den sunday went to church and off to sam's house to slack and i saw 1/4 of de actual fireworks from his house!! monday morning went to send su ping off to myammar for her attachment :'( and de best part is tat de wind and rain was very strong at 630 and im freezing w/o my jacket! i'll miss her for tis 4 mths..later,we went for breakfast and chatted for awhile..and off to home and pack for de hotel stay and off to meet the peeps!

the hotel was very grand! goodwood park hotel leh~and i loved their durian cake and puffs! simply delicious! went to buy kelly's present before tat and after unloading our bags, went to cineleisure to buy ticket for "UP" in 3D!! we have few hr till de movie so went to kill our time by playing pool and wii games! had loads of fun and dinner before the movie starts. the movie was touching btw..i wept while watching it and it was funny too :D love the dodo bird!! after movie the time was already 11 plus. it was the few time tat i've walked down orchard road at tis time where nobody is there to block ur path. feels simply great!

we walked back to the hotel and along the way bought some mixers for our drinks. played poker back in the room and celebrated kelly's birthday. enjoyed the game session too.wid all the crazy punishments and videos :D not long later,i felt my eyelids were heavy and i soon became quiet..haha! got tau pok as a punishment for game and some VERY UNGLAM photos! mux train myself to drink more alcohol le! my limit is like getting lower. tis wun do! tsk. everyone slept at ard 4 plus and woke up at 7 plus. i was the hardest to wake up den :P cox de bedsheet was damn thin to cover and warm me till ard 6 plus i had to grab a towel to wrap myself to sleep! didnt went for de swim in de morning cox didnt have de energy n movitation to. sorri gals! :S after tat we prepared ourselves to check out and off to eat some cheap but nice abalones!! shark fin,scallops and many more! i ate buddha jump over the wall set and it onli cost 10 bucks! hah! off to sch and had a hard time concentrating in class. went home and slept till 9 plus,ate dinner and slept till 11 de next morning.

okie.it's a SUPER DUPER LONGGGGG and whiney post i noe. pictures will be up here soon! if ur wanna see can go fb and have the first look! i'll be posting selected ones up here onli cox there are ard 300 over pics!! OH.btw, nie's starting tmr!!! :'( no more thursday offs and more workloads!! gg to sleep le.adios!!

2009-08-06T00:03:00.002+08:00

it's jux past midnight!! and i've got no sch for tmr!! nie starts onli next week :D but got work to do :( no more slacking. sch was really really enjoyable wid them ard. we enjoy more and more of each other's company as de days passed. we're also gg to spur each other on to get gd grade tis sem! and so gonna surpass those who think they're jux SO great. tsk! dun ever look down on others when YOU yourself isnt tat almighty GREAT.

i developed my own films on mon in de dark room! its my very 1st time doing tis and is very fun! i dun think alot of ppl gets to try and do these things in their life. gonna enlarge my photos de next photography lesson. :D im getting more and more into guitar le.and finding de chords for guan huai fang shi. it's an old song from a tv series tat chen han wei acted in. so anybody who have de chords please pass it to me k?? i really wan it!!

oh man.got 2 birthdays coming on after another and im already very broke from buying all de materials for sch.. one falls on de 8th and another on de 10th. *faint* so gonna celebrate tmr wid my ex e6 and hotel stay on monday for another.im SO looking forward to tat! its gonna be a hell lots of fun! and uncle..dun worry too much k?? i'll report to u and wun get myself dead drunk de. :D

and lastly, i got another 2 bites from bed bugs and whined to mom abt it. and im sleeping on a temporary mattress tonite till tis weekend. wee~! no more bites and heng till now they have nv attack my face! thanked God man! alrighty. gg to do some work and browse de net for now..i saw some very nice korean clothings onlie and am so tempted to buy!

2009-07-29T23:58:00.008+08:00

i realized tat it's not the dunno-wat-insect that bit me nor the blood sucking mosquito. it does not come from de sofa too!! de fact is it's found in my bed mattress!! YES. it's de damn BED BUGS and i've got 6 deadly bites now. and they jux dun bite my siblings -.- im SO gonna fry them under de HOT HOT SUN ! at 12 NOON, SHARP!

but first..how am i gonna to get through tonight wid those things sleeping wid me?? I CANT SEE THEM!! :'(

2009-07-27T23:30:00.001+08:00

im getting worried abt my weight cox its like increasing everyday! :'( dun say im skinny cox i've got a tummy to rid! haha! my left arm is still itching from my sat's dunno-wat-insect's bite. it's really itchy and swells like mad.. and i have to handle 4 of it. tsk tsk! mom~! it's time to change de sofa cover!!

im BROKE. 100 plus buck jux gone like tat within one visit to artfriend today.. but im looking forward to de lessons btw..although it'll be tough.like really. hope i dun get sick especially flu cox i really hate it when it's serious. those who noe me well should get wat i mean. OHOH.someone's dating me tis thurs and im excited lah!! HAHA. and tis post is very random i noe. everything's crammed tgt and has no link. :P bear wid me ya? cox i think there's more to come!!

alrighty.im dead tired for today.still need to head down to sch early tmr..nite!

2009-07-24T00:23:00.003+08:00

i just managed to play twinkle twinkle little star on my guitar! first song! and i noe it sounded lame alright..my fingers are kinda painful and im trying real hard to master guitar before anything else starts crashing on me.which however now it's already starting. :( im really scared of indesign. no confident. cox of my bad grades in photoshop -.- AND i didnt managed to take photographs of my neighbourhood cox i cant take out my previous film till dad comes home to help.by the time he reaches home is already evening and this antique camera dun work well at nite.how pathetic.

lesson time tmr is horrible..12-6. how bad can it be? i rather it's in the morning than this kinda hour. but there's painting to look forward to! :D

i think i better take my studies SERIOUSLY this sem. like im serious too! cox now i KIA SU and KIA SI. dun wanna lose out at the end and starts crying over spilled milk..no more. and there's the sushi buffet again tmr! need to prepare my stomach to contain those delicacies u noe..haha! gg to rest for the day le.im starting to feel de rush of adrenaline..

2009-07-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

Atashinchi no Danshi is awesome! take a look at it if your are free ;)

2009-07-15T13:33:00.007+08:00

Weee~! it has been awhile since i've blogged! kinda lazy lah..anyway, watched ice age 3 and i LOVE it! hilarious especially scrat the squirrel. he's got a gf eventually but still goes back to his first love. :D harry potter's up TMR and i dun think there's any space left in the cinema for me to sit :( wat's the rush to see it first? oh well..i think most likely i head for the cinema ard next week when the crowds are lesser.

AND speaking of NEXT WEEK. SCH'S STARTING!! omg.omg.omgggggggg!!! 2 mths of holidays are gone and im in to 2nd yr of my studies at nafa! the other day i jux took ONE WHOLE DAY to login to register for my modules and electives..and im gonna learn guitar!! :D yes.guitar. haha! and different painting materials and photography! using the really antique kinda camera tat needs film and my DAD has it! i didnt noe he took my childhood photos wid tat piece of thing. -.- below are some photos which i took during the past week:-

woo..they had a cat fair at eastpoint and i get to see this ENORMOUS FAT cat. try guess it's weight.

ohoh! cute?? i was sewing this for a week and now its over at sam's house :'( wo yao bao bao!

i had craving for ikea's meatball for awhile and heading there to eat and buy the pillow for my CUTE cross stitch :D

AND lastly, i spent the whole afternoon at hcc to do this signboard wid yuyan yest.YES. im one of those who are gg to paint ur nails during ROMP! this sat. come and support me ar!! i'll paint ur nails NICE NICE!! ;D

tat's all for now. im thinking of wat to do for the remaining entire afternoon at home.. :(

2009-07-01T13:09:00.005+08:00

mm. went to watch transformers on sunday evening. got free ticket mah..but it's at the FIRST row -.- have to move our heads from left to right and back again to be able to see the whole screen..i dun fancy transformers until i watch the movie. kinda nice and interesting..alot of climax and i love the cute cute robots! hees. the twins,bee,tat grandpa robot and and small little fellow. haha! but hor..i was holding my bladder halfway into the movie and rushed to the toilet one and half hr later! -.- i've learnt my lesson..GO TOILET before the movie starts! haha! got a few movies i wanna watch and today one jux came out! my beloved ICE AGE 3! so gonna watch soon and harry potter too! :D

these few days has been gg to T1 to see if go my black top before the sales ends tis friday..i should have bought it when it still have my size lor!! damn it. now i regretted not buying den.haha! gg to check out again later den go meet sam at boon lay. i noe it's VERY far..but i've got too much time to waste now before sch starts in two weeks time. although i got play maple and sew de cross stitch for now..but my body keeps protesting and wans to move ard. haha! cant stay still for long!

AND yest nite went for my uncle mom's wake. i rmb tat i was being taken care of by my aunt when i was ard 4 yrs old?? till pri 2 and i always saw tat grandma whom i called 'ah ma'. mm..she talks to me lah..den also taught me how to pray and chant cox i was curious den. always kneel beside her when i reach there in the morning and chant tgt wid her. she even gave me a string of beads to chant wid! haha! and now,she's gone. she's a person whom i've almost forgotten..until i heard tat she died on monday den it striked my mind. my aunt told me tat ah ma said she wanted to see me since long time ago leh!! and i didnt noe..aunt told her im busy so cant go T.T ah ma!! if i noe i'll surely go visit u de lah!! *sob. i suddenly miss those days wid her..hope tat she can rest in peace in the other world ba.. :'(

mm..not long since i got back and i've been bugged by them again. damn. feeling irritated by it. and i noe there's some re-shuffling gg on and im feeling quite sian abt it.

2009-06-24T17:54:00.003+08:00

im so bored~~ wish tat sch could start early *oh my,did i jux said tat??*

sunday celebrated rx's 19th birthday! was good :) hope tat she'll like de present i gave ba. yest was very very BORING and weather was VERY warm. couldnt stand staying at home and rot so when over to T1 to walk and bought my top. den i went to de salon to dye my hair *AGAIN?!* haha.due to the previous dye was blue black, it was hard to erase tat colour. so onli den newly grown hair are able to take in de dye. :( de hairdresser still help me to apply another colour to de end of my hair and yet didnt give extra charges! :D haha.overall: top is brown and slowly it fades to my orginal blue black. but i saw there's abit of colour under sunlight lah.not tat bad..looks like hightlight sia. and the person still saying got ppl purposely wanna dye like tat de, tell me to say to others tat i purposely wanna dye like tat -.-

today weather is VERY COOLING~! which i like it alot :D rain the whole day and im home watching BBF. finally completed the whole drama! im wondering wat to watch next..LOL!

AND NOW for an excited news! at tis moment while im typing, there's a couple outside my window at the highway quarrelling on the motorbike parked along the side. they shouted so loud i can even hear it lor. and their actions so kua zhang. suppose they are malays ba.i dun understand a single thing they talk. HAHA! wonder how long more are they gg to quarrel.. de guy has been hiiting his bike wid a towel for very long le leh.. :P

2009-06-20T21:42:00.004+08:00

im BACK~!!! hees. overall okie ba the camp. jux some barriers tat block me at de start but slowly, im used to it. and during tis time, i did try to find a chance to say hi and even God gave me many chances to do tat..but somehow my fears stopped me. cause i know i've no more 'zi ge' to say anything le. so in regards to tis matter, nothing has changed. was glad tat i did have a better bonding wid my fellow district members lah.. if it was in de past, i'll still stick to my usual clique and refuse to mingle wid them. but now, i realized they aren't as bad as wat i think. and i thank God for tat :D my heart..i realized some things are still deeply attached to my heart even though i've numbed it. tat's my passion. my dream. i wonder if its true and if i can fulfil it at de end..

food was okieeee.. xP jux i didnt eat much(except de first nite). but i ate ALOT of bread! it was simply soft and nice! and de late nite suppers has caused me to gain back my weight! HAHA!! food poisoning has gone to a waste. xP im starting to miss to aircon environment there too..5 days there i didnt sweat a single drop and my pimples have disappeared! :D bought some clothes and took some pics throughout de camp! :D

thanks to those who stayed by my side during de whole camp. cause i really needed tat. :) if not i dunno how am i gg to survive thru. like seriously. haha.check out the photos below ba! gg to bed le! NITE!! ;-*

2009-06-14T19:05:00.003+08:00

hehe. here to blog before gg off for m'sia tmr!! bye peeps! for 5 days! :D haha! yest's trip was okie..juz a little too quiet :p and didnt go for service today. cox i had an extreme stomache. conclusion: yest's seafood at m'sia. HAHA. tis morning i thought it was a mild one till at later part it began to ache like siao and i broke out in cold sweat.couldnt breathe properly and wanna vomit too! lol. jux like tat time when i jux had fried oyster..worse tis time. i SWEAR not to eat any not properly cooked shellfish le!! i've nv sweat so much at one go in my entire life. my mom got a shock when she saw me and i thought i was gg to die any moment. :x den went to de clinic wid toot toot and lunch wid parents. by den my stomache was much better. doc so cute! he told me he also having bad tummy ache tis morning! HAHA! toot toot they eat more den me but nothing happened to them leh.i so suay.. -.-

AND..i lost weight! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! siao. wat's so happy? lol! better dun eat so much and control my diet ba. im scared of m'sia's food now..and im gg there tmr again!! :s alrighty! gg to pack my luaggage le! wid all my FOOD inside! :D

2009-06-12T22:30:00.004+08:00

im feeling helpless and like a total idiot yet, i dun think u would care wat my reason is. cause wats done cannot be undone.

ANYWAY. gg to jorhor tmr wid toot toot and his mum and sis! 1st time there i hope it would be okie. and church camp is on monday..dun really dare to expect anything. jux hope tat things would go smoothly ba. :) i feel weird. :S

2009-06-11T12:10:00.003+08:00

SO BORED!!!!! i cant stand it staying at home and doin NOTHING except to eat and sleep. if tis goes on i'll grow fat and i'll start worrying abt how to lose all those extras again! haha! so yest evening i went jogging. ur must be thinking, "huh? qiying go jogging?! sure anot.." LOL. YES. i went JOGGING. cause i practically cant find anything else to do!! so sian. and later in de afternoon, im gona head down to de library to read some book the whole day and shun bian enjoy some AIRCON..weather is getting more and more freaking humid lah!! must find somewhere cooling to hide le :P alright. going off le. tata!

2009-06-09T23:34:00.002+08:00

jux back from cycling wid shuyi from changi to east coast! haha. damn tiring man.but i feel more healthy :D but after eating at mac and feeling very bloated, i think all the cycling has gone to a waste. HAHA. i had a fun time. tat auntie kept msg-ing and "fell" from her bike twice. -.- tsk tsk. anyway.i think i've got no more job since there's no more urgent packaging to do. haha. finally free but yet, i feel boring staying at home the whole of today. but i dun wanna go out and start splurging cox its my HARD EARNED $ and i kinda like the feeling of being a little rich at the moment. :P and OH btw....

thanks to whoever is 'slippers' who's so kind to send me the invitation card. im a very curious person and i would like to noe very much who is tat. who still rmbs and cares abt me. im really surprised and touched. and somehow i cant figure out whose handwriting is it lah..although it looks familiar. so whoever is it, i hope to hear from u soon!so mysterious.. haha! loads of hugs to u! :D

2009-06-04T22:24:00.003+08:00

PHOTO TIME!! :DD

we ENJOYED 2 days of non-stop playing of chapteh! although de weather is FREAKING WARM. but later on went inside de building to play and enjoy aircon at de same time. :D

de outdoor activities team!! *clap!clap!

LUNCH TIME!! although i threw 80% of de food away :P

group photo 1. who's tat beside me wid de cap on?!

group photo 2. is it fann wong copyright?!

2009-06-04T21:54:00.006+08:00

i realized alot of ppl DO read my blog. but no tag!! :( TAG ME!! TAG ME!! HAHAH! im nuts. should be caused by my work ba. see tis and ur will understand:

i have to fill de syringe wid liquid of 40 units into a bottle. easy huh? but not when i need to fill up 1000 BOTTLES of it! still haven complete even after 2 days and my fingers are sore. it's swelling from tightening de caps. :(( at first when i saw de needle, my whole body turned soft. i dun even dare to go near de docs cox im scared. REALLY.so sick also die die mux stay at home :D

HOHO. believe it or not. a BITE from my JUICY ant at sculpture square.it itch alot, but recovering now lah. :D

AND my groups saw THIS on our first day too! almighty tan was under de tree tat moment and it jux fall to de ground from tat tree. me n shah did saw it move it's wings a little but after tat nv le. mr alvin was good enough to bury it under tat tree. we also saw de mother crow looking for its baby up de tree. aiyo. saddening lah..

de photos are up! i'll jux upload it in my next post. :D i feel a tiny bit rich.cox i saved de money from work and tis week im getting more too! plus i still got monthly allowance which i haven touch. :DD scare tat im gonna splurge again!! nono..qi ying.u MUST control urself u noe..HAHA! and PPL. wait for my surprise tis weekend. ;)

2009-06-01T11:42:00.003+08:00

another week is over jux like tat. :( how fast..oh well. still as busy as ever. yet fun :D from cycling under the rain from east coast all the way to changi to playing chap teh for past two days of the event. it was FUN! everyone enjoyed ourselves to the max wid our hilarious actions. i didnt noe tat a few feathers stuck to a rubber base would be so much fun. no wonder kids in the past enjoyed it so much.great for bonding too! and OH.did i mention tat i got a bite from AN ANT?? its smally and red. BUT VERY JUICY.. it welcomed me on the first day. it itched,so i scratched and it swells -.- till now the big red patch is still there. horrible ants! im scared. :S i also got many cuts from playing the lalangs too.. :( got pics to upload lah..but my friends haven upload yet so have to wait lor..haha! wait patiently ar ppl.. :D AND im sOoOo excited!! tmr gonna visit the science centre wid nafa peeps! there's a exhibition on da vinci's inventions and artworks!

one last thing before i end. i jux cannot understand y mux they do things till so extreme? cant they juz give us some space to breathe? izit wrong to make our own decisions? there's a certain limit to controlling ppl. GET THIS RIGHT. and those who got some stuff from here, dun u spread. jux keep it within tis space here. if not, once i found out.im gg to get u. if i get real mad, ur wun see tis blog again. tsk.childish ppl.

2009-05-25T15:15:00.004+08:00

the weather is getting more terrible these days..and i heard tat the ice bergs in north pole will completely melt away 16 yrs later!! poor polars and pengins :(

anyway, dun think i'll be working tis week ba. since de orders are not confirm yet and i cant work for most of the days tis week. there goes my chance of getting more $!! :(( will be packed tis whole week i guess.

today: briefing for de upcoming event held at sculpture square.
tues: cycle to changi wid auntie and CUT LALANGS!! -.- (under de sun somemore.how nice) but i've jux FINALLY bought a portable fan. so should be alright i guess :D
wed:out shopping wid aud??
thurs:sculpture square carnival '09-kampong days(HOT HOT SUN :(( )
fri:same
sat:same
sun:service den FINALLY home to slack and watch my drama!! :D

actually wasnt tat bad wid all these activities. my bunch of friends would be enough to kill de boredom away :D haha.another week of holiday will be gone jux like tat :( oh well.at least im now enjoying my CHILLI CRAB cup noodles(jux a few hours after my lunch) :D and enjoyed a few movies last week :D gonna browse ard the net le. bye!

2009-05-19T22:17:00.003+08:00

im still having tat tug-o-war in my heart.. could i have another chance to walk thru tgt wid u again?

2009-05-17T22:04:00.003+08:00

i had a nice weekend! :D but too bad no photos to show ur :P kinda lazy to take down and upload lah huh..LOL :PpP mm.fri nite went to eat SUSHI BUFFET!! mom,sis n sam and i went. dad dun eat those so..have to abandon him ba :P ate from 8? till 10? last customer to go too! and our receipt was super super long! ur should see it! but haix..my fault! :P we had a great time there eating and laughing non stop. mom was extremely high tat day too. especially when she saw my sis's walking posture after meal. AND i gained back my weight which i've lost during de assessment period :(( mux stop eating good food and control my mouth le!!

sat was a very fun-filled day. went out for lunch and shopping wid aerenia and her friend :D HAHA. tsk tsk.sam kenna scratched,pinched,kicked,hit by tat dear gal cause he jux cant keep his mouth shut. HAHA.so i jux stand one side lor..tgt wid her friend.we're both neutral n innocent :D after shopping my heart almost jump right out after calculating how much i've spent. boo.hoo. no more spending for tis month..i guess. headed down to CHC wid them after tat. dun like there. too worldly for me. bad impression still stays. haha! after dinner den headed home and knock off to bed.

today went for service at FCBC. i still prefer de atmosphere here. compared to CHC. my pov.no offence. but still cant be compared to my mother church ba :) used to it le. afternoon till nite spent de whole time at home wid sam watching drama.haha! boring? but it loads so slow! so most of de time is play games lor..tsk tsk.should see de way he plays those games..my sis should be better den him ba. *opps!

haix.starting work tmr again. gotta strain my eyes again till all is done. but for de cash,IM WILLING!! :D de aunties there also very funny so kinda fast to pass my days ba. im still waiting for my movie which will be released on tis coming thurs!:D gtg! bye!

2009-05-13T22:17:00.009+08:00

work is SO boring today :( im like a mad scientist pouring chemicals here and there.LOL. but i earned $$ :D and i've got my 1st holiday craving!

TADA!! Indian Rojak!! superb.delicious. :D tis dish somehow reminded me of de times when de both of us love tis dish. we went to eat and spend time tgt sharing abt de different things :D we were still sec sch kids den.

alrighty! im gg to do smth now. get rid of my dark rings wid CUCUMBER!! i hope tis method will work *wid a double twist* heard tat its quite effective.HAHA. okie okie. im so nervous and excited! bye!!

2009-05-12T23:02:00.004+08:00

ITS OVER~ITS OVER~!!! i can finally take a long long break before getting back to de hectic life again :D tis sem has truely been a killer to me. made me work non-stop for weeks! especially for de past 2-3 weeks? dun even have time for meals and breaks. let alone my precious sleep :( AND i do actually lost a few kgs through tis period of time (as always) and a painful thumb. DIE. i now too have permanent dark circles just beneath my eyes. :( very demoralising. stupid sleepless nights! screw u! now i need to spend $ on getting rid of these sickening stuff :(

assessment was alright.spent the whole day in sch from 10-6 wid all de very very heavy boards which keep on falling off de walls -.- tis time rd de 2nd to present my works. hope tat i can maintain my grades or even better, up by a grade! :D ate nothing de whole day except a vallina bread after i got home.knocked out de next min and now awake to declare my freedom! for 2 mths :D though i'll be starting work tmr..but haiz..there goes my full time pay :(

dramas,animes,storybooks,cross stitch. here i come! i'll still pratice on my works lah huh.. :D and can pei him le! thanks for being a support during tis time.love ya! and oh. church camp? i wonder how it would be. and im excited abt de jap dinner buffet wid mom on fri and shopping wid aerenia on sat! mths of no shopping.its killing me! :P

alright. gotta go sleep le. need to work tmr. ciaos :D

2009-05-05T23:36:00.004+08:00

i jux came back from watching 'X-men origins:wolverine'!! if i were to grade de movie, i would give 8.5/10 stars! super nice lor! i recommend to go watch! :D i didnt noe how he got his invincible powers but now i noe :D and he's got a sad past and ending. LOL.okie lah.dun spoil de excitement le. GO WATCH OKIE?? AND i cant wait for 'night at the museum 2' on 21 may! so gonna catch it! :D

hmmm..i think most probably i'll be gg fer de camp? if i can. haha. bro did ask me to go too. im jux afraid ba..of de awkwardness i'll be facing when i see them. i've past my 1st sunday of de mth outside tis family. feels kinda weird. hah. and i cant put some ppl off my mind. maybe its becox of de deep friendship we've built over de past few yrs. happy, sad, angry, frustrating, exciting, discouraging, and even numbed moments tgt? i thought tat i could let go of them as time passes by. but i missed them even more! well.tis is de route i chose in de first place.and i have to bear de consequences ba. be it how bad it is. but maybe there's a good news? i might be back soon cox im a very 'homely' person?! HAHA!!!!! anyway. tis is my blabber so i dun hope ppl who sees tis will twist and turn my words. if ever i hear it i'll get real mad.alright, gotta go do my work le. chaos!

2009-05-04T22:15:00.003+08:00

im exhausted. been rushing my works like some work-coholic lah.. haven been sleeping much for the past few weeks and pimples are popping out! :( my cough n flu is getting serious by de day. plus today went back to sch for make up lesson, and i saw at de entrance 2 security guards are standing outside wing A and taking ppl's temperature. i dun even dare to COUGH in front of them! have to 'gek' till i enter the campus den run up to my class and cough. -.-'' AND i broke my record of staying up till 445am to complete my work! i dunno how but i didnt sleep AT ALL. eyes opened wide wide and do my work. nv to curse and swear at my teacher till 6 plus in de morning. lol.and i was high till i got home at 3 plus and knock out.
'assessment' today wasnt tat good. teacher very fierce! but i manage to get off wid some re-dos. she actually caused some ppl to crack today lah..and i cracked last week. HAHA! and my beloved teacher jux cant stop talking abt it. im glad tat the rush is almost over.NEXT WEEK! I'LL BE FREE!! fo 2 mths :D who wanna jio me out?who?who?? :D i wanna play!be crazy! BUT,also will revise my work at de same time lah. no more cryings! i wanna hold back my tears and prove to them tat i'll improve and can acheive wat they expect! lazy bug,SHOO FAR FAR AWAY from me! :D
and...i pray tat he will be able to pass tmr. i cant wait for de movie and wed nite wid de gals :D

2009-04-30T13:32:00.003+08:00

er hm. yest marks de last day of my first yr in nafa. time FLIES~! haha! now is de time to stay at home, rush ALL my uncomplete works out and wait for may 12th. but still some need to submit during make up lesson lah..so more rush! mm.past 3 days have been very hectic..always sleep very late and wake up early to go sch :( very tiring lah! and tis week hasnt been smooth for many of us.many are discouraged and some broke down. and FINALLY ms tan approved my PS!! :D nevertheless,we will fight on!to complete de rest of de 3 yrs of studies tgt! haha. now hor..de war among de class is like more obvious le lah..due to smth tat happened. i hope tis wun be there for long..although it's kinda impossible :s oh well! gotta go rush my work le! ALOT ALOT to complete!!

2009-04-26T23:56:00.003+08:00

here i am. stuck at home gg to burn midnight oil.i wonder if i can last through de nite. i haven really touch on my work due to my very bad habit.laziness.haha.slacking at home de whole of sat and enjoy my time wid him. :D oh man.i pray tat i can surivive thru tis week of sch although there's like onli 3 days of lesson. but becox of so many works pilling up and yet im still sick of touching my work. i miss hanging out wid my friends. i had to push myself from now on. qy,tis is serious okie? no more slacking.no more play time till assessment is over. :( AND throughout de whole weekend, de weather is FREAKING HOT. -.- im worried if im gg to die before i turn ripe old..HAH! if de weather cont to carry on like tis, i think i would need a back up plan le ba. LOL. go and live in space? okie.im nuts. well, time to carry on wid my work le. adios!

2009-04-25T13:16:00.005+08:00

PPL!! i've finally changed my skin!! NICE NICE?? :D haha. it took me quite awhile to figure out on how to change and add details AND its really hard! a great achievement for a com idiot like me huh. CONGRATS! HAHAHAHA! do fill up my chat box k? i dun wan it to remain empty though..HAHA.

mm..now to blog abit before really starting my schedule for the day. HOMEWORK. :(( its kinda struggling to be staying at home doing my work..it's never ending!! so exhausted lah..praying tat assessment will pass smoothly. eh.yest went out wid aerenia! had a great time tgt CHATTING n EATING. went for eyebrow treading first. OUCH man. super pain. i didnt go for very long le and my brows are messy! so went and i feel so naked above my eyes lor.LOL. went to e-hub for sushi buffet at ri ben cun(try to figure out?cox i dun have chinese in my lappy). the food there are super delicious! and we really ate ALOT. love the strawberry roll(is tat wat its called?).LOL. mm.we shared abt the different things tat've happened and one moment i was shock. haha.all thses while i didnt even sense anything lah. mux call her the master le :P anyway, we went home feeling ultra bloated. pray tat wherever she is now, she'll be happy ba. :D

mm.didnt see them for a week le.tmr will mark the second. i miss them.SERIOUSLY. suppose to go back to help for family day but since cancelled so no need le. might be gg for the camp? should i? oh well. might be back soon? or maybe awhile longer? or nv? heart's still attached there leh..but things wun be the same anymore. LOL. jux let me enjoy my days of freedom with no strings attached ba.i noe nv will i let go of his hands again. i had enough of waiting.

HAHA. U MUX BE SEEING TIS POST NOW RITE? :D

2009-04-14T22:25:00.003+08:00

IT'S SO IRRITATING...

i have to retake my photos for sch work lah..cox of NOT SO GOOD quality handphone -.- actually..its nice..jux tat i need to enlarge it so got blur. grr..need to spend my weekend doing more work le.. and assessment is onli 4 weeks away! hmm..wat's left to do?

-4 A2 size drawings on rhythm
-8 photoshop pictures n scrapbook(which im REALLY BAD in ):)
-research and A2 work on baggage to be done by fri
-art history essay to be done n submit by next monday
-moodboard and 3D model of chinese invention
-perspective final project's research and A2 final work (another which im BAD in also):)
-completion of seahorse drawing before assessment

ALL these things are enough to kill me before assessment starts. i really need de strength from God. to survive through all these :( feel so tired and drained out..HAHA. die. im behaving more like a pig le..HAHA! gtg now. chaos!

2009-04-10T13:56:00.001+08:00

someone's sad cox cant see me last post :D YEAH. i did it :D

2009-03-13T11:59:00.017+08:00

[BE PREPARED]

*some pics are funny and might causes u to think otherwise :x*

today will be posting lots and lots and lots of photos up! at airport,museum and BBQ!photos are not in sequence. AND its nv bored hanging out wid them! glad tat we enjoted ourselves and jia you!! DAT1A rocks!!

2009-03-03T22:44:00.002+08:00

yeah~! tuitoral week has started but yet after 2 days,im still gg back to sch and now im stuck here trying to do my art history essay :(( did it once before and almost failed back at nie last sem..so now im wrecking my brain to figure out on how to do a proper job and pass tis one nice and sweet.HAHA.de bad thing is tat im feeling slightly feverish now :( pray tat i'll do well and be able to submit it on fri ba. still got dance exam and presentation tat very day :( sheesh! so many things to do yet so little time. oh well..jux taking a break down here and gotta get back to my work le..need to hurry!! hees! bye ppl~~:(

2009-02-15T23:19:00.004+08:00

quite awhile didnt update le huh. lol. my v day was so-so lah. IC for games like almost the whole day?? special huh? lol. and i had a bad hair cut today. :( no more tat style of mine. but im determined to let it grow and cut back my style! ppl. dun laugh at me when ur see my hair outside okie? my heart already *ping pong piang* le. HAHA. lol. so many hw to do..yet so little time. well.gtg for now.i noe ur MISS ME :D i will try to update soon okie?? :D chaos~!

2009-01-25T22:27:00.004+08:00

YO!! yesterday took neoprints wid my classmates..haha.practically one gal was VERY EXCITED and keep bugging us to take tgt during de long break. overall was fun and de pics turned out quite nice :D

AND chinese new year is TMR!! had steamboat at home and am VERY BLOATED now. stomach's gonna burst le lah. so many good food to eat..how to resist?! think gonna gain like ALOT tis festive season..i pray tat it'll not come true :( SEE! SEE! i had a fabulous meal! and i help out at the kitchen tis yr okie!

not all de dishes are up yet :D

WOO~~! my favourite sharkfin soup!!

tis is very nice. fa cai hao shen

SHABU SHABU!! BEEFY!! (me and sis finished the WHOLE plate of it :P)

introducing..MY SIS!

FINALLY we 3 siblings took a photo tgt! had a hard time persuading the da bor to come! :P

ending off wid a HAPPY CHINESE "NIU" YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE! go get lotsa ang baos huh! and get some spare tires ard ur waist! HAHA. enjoy ur holiday ppl!!

2009-01-23T00:31:00.004+08:00

sch has been quite exhausting tis week up till now..yet im still slacking my way through and didnt complete my assignment i need to hand up later..how how?? qi ying..u mux buck up okie?? u need to get better results den wat u have last sem.. :P well,2 weeks are gone and 5 more weeks to my next holiday! :D God has also spoke to me abt some mindsets tat i need to change. be it my cell, my walk or even my relationship wid ppl. its high time i should change. i noe it'll be hard..but i'll learn to have faith in God in all things. :DD

oh ya..i've grow fatter :(( very very bad..keeps getting hungry easily after my sickness last yr..PLUS, cny is ard the corner!! argh. mux control!! but maybe becox im not tat emo like last time le plus im more cheerful den before so my appetite increased?? HAHA. enough of my own theory le. super tired now..got sch later which means is my doom's day. wish me luck! :((

2009-01-19T00:19:00.003+08:00

yawn..im so gonna have a monday blues tmr.. so fast my weekend has ended. OH. i've dyed my hair black! even black den natural black! :D kinda nice but not used to it. thought ppl would not have noticed as it a common colour but well, maybe becox of my previous lion head style ba. so gone to church today and ppl were like asking me. some dun even recognise me -.- but overall, i like my hair! LOL say so many things and back to square one..now better den the half black and half golden hair lah. last time ppl call me lion head,now is garu(i dun even noe who in the whole wide world is tat). okie.short post for today. but i've enjoyed my weekend.especially today. :))

2009-01-15T22:20:00.005+08:00

FINALLY tmr is friday and weekend is coming soon! so happy cox can see my dear church ppl and rest! well, tis week kinda slack cox intro to de new modules we're taking tis sem..requirements are much harder to acheive..and im wondering how am i gonna wriggle thru till may..AND i thought i've got rid of ceramics last sem and i've got sculpture tis sem! :(( and my worst nightmare appears..perspective drawing,photoshop n self portrait!! im like -.- when im facing all these and there's a lesson in thinking too! -.- teacher talk n talk non-stop..hate lecture times..BUT, wid my friends ard, time isnt tat hard to pass by :D

today went to nie for lessons and on de way back home we took some photos at de back of de bus. indeed we're kinda making a bunch of unwanted noises and ppl at de front keeps turning back to wonder wat are those siao zha bos behind talking n laughing crazily abt.alrighty, enough abt my naggy week, 2 photos we took on de bus. BYE!

2009-01-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL'S STARTING TMR!!!! AH!!!! :D my holidays are gone jux like tat..*sob sob* but somehow,i've got a mixed feeling..excited yet scare. haha. another half yr's gonna pass soon and BOOM! im in yr 2! how fast! hehe. got nothing to type le. BYE! :D

2009-01-06T22:44:00.009+08:00

happy super ultra belated new year! HAHA. still kinda busy these days..watching dramas! :D anyway,on 31st,still was an usher for tis yr and had a great countdown at HCC rooftop tis year den headed down to meet my friends at pasir ris park.pub den ton till morning den home to rest and out to ecp to ride bike wid others. had a wonderful time too. :D

went to faith's house today to fellowship wid her. went swimming too and had sunburn. *ouch* super long nv exercise le so after a few laps i began to pant like mad. :( but still we had a good fellowship by de pool.ppl!! chio me for swimming! i wanna train my cardio and be fit!! :D i now can proclaim tat her dog now is a horny dog due to some reasons.hehe. mm..made some sushi at her house and den headed down to bugis to buy things and along de way something happened tat made me cant forget my expression till now. horrendous!! dun rmb k!! haha. first time i enjoyed my shopping at tecman. finally bought 2 books which were discounted(but i still think it's ex) and i love it. good investment. :D i dunno y but i suddenly wan to noe more abt Jesus and is interested in reading His book. beginning to feel excited abt everything of Him. and even my upcoming mission in june. super looking forward to it.

oh ya!tis sat got 2010m run/walk at SMU campus. anyone interested? and i've signed up for de run for 2010m within 20mins10s!! should be kinda easy..ran before 2.4km within 15 mins? and its like 3yrs ago?! can one lah..haha.dun xiao kan ms tham okie? im previously in sports management somemore hor. xP oh well,enjoy the pics. had some crazy time tgt. go out someday again ppl k?!?

su ping n me

rx and me

LOOK! IM IN AUSTRALIA!! :D

2009..

ting fang n me

angelia n me

its us again!

say cheese!!

on 30th, steph's b'day

HAPPY 15th BDAE WOMAN!!

now ending off wid...................

my favourite photo!(i jumped so high!!:D)

AND..........................................

my CLASSICAL FACE!! HAHA! xD

2008-12-29T13:08:00.004+08:00

YO! yesterday's the last sunday service for the month and my whole district decided to wear black! here are the photos:

TWIST~!

EAST DISTRICT C!!

shu min's not in the photo :(( she went ard to give out x'mas cards and we forgotten abt her..sorri shu min!! AND, all pretty rite?? especially the one wid the very colourful and ATTRACTIVE skirt! uhuh..i noe im pretty. LOL. i think im beginning to enjoy my district le. and i've received presents here and there.thanks alot! especially got a BIG present tis yr! haha. i've de urge to go disneyland..im a disney fan!! so ur noe wat to get for me on my bday rite?? haha. gtg now. rushing to complete my unfinished xmas cards to be given out. BYE!

2008-12-26T13:51:00.006+08:00

busy busy busy. even till now so post will be kinda short till ard 28th? haha. RAW CAMP is special to me cox God spoke to me in a diff way.ppl may find the camp disappointing tis yr? or even a transformation? i pray wid all my heart tat God will speak so personally to individual lives every single day. it has been tiring yet memorable. finally changed to a new phone!! and im not tat scare to stand on stage anymore.i wanna start living for God again.i wanna lay down all tat has been within me and start afresh.no matter wat will happen in the future i dun care. God is there.
X'mas is over and 2008 will be over soon.it has been a yr of memories and i'll nv ever forget how i rise and fall and struggled thru. im gald tat God didnt give up on me, so are those ard me. sch's starting soon and i'll be back to my busy schedule. 2009 will pass fast.im sure and i'll be looking forward to 2010 once again. HAHA. so routine. but im excited for sch! although i've seen my new timetable and EVERYDAY i have lessons starting at 9!! but afternoons will be free so jio me out if anyone is near my sch huh?? :DD AND...would anyone be so kind to volunteer to help me change my blog skin??im sick of tis woman here!! HAHA. photos will be up soon :D stay tune!!

wats the meaning of the x'mas card?stay really strong in the Lord uncle. no matter wat may happen.im really looking forward to de day u'll be coming out. would u cont to wait and believe? i'll place every single memories i've had wid u deep in my heart. those were the happiest and blessed moments in my life.thanks for everything.

2008-11-30T00:12:00.003+08:00

went to ECP for p6 programme on friday. it was okie. jux tat im tired and got a slight sunburn from de hot weather. lazy to type further. one pic to sum up the story.

TADA!! kinda windy so my hair's messy. :(

2008-11-25T00:07:00.005+08:00

FINALLY BACK!! m.i.a for 4 mths lo..anyone missed me?? :(( im like talking to myself lah.. so saddening..anyway, sch's busy for the past 4 mths and i only got my well deserved break last week.but still as busy as ever.sch has been enjoyable plus ive got myself a bunch of new-found friends! they are sure a crazy bunch to hang out wid. 2 times i broke down, and without them, i wouldnt been able to walk thus far.sleeping only 3-4 hrs a day is already de enough rest i could ask for as some dun even sleep a wink. hehe.my whole schedule jux revolve ard sch everyday.mm, holiday will be till next yr..i hope things will turn out better den. think indulging myself into my sch work would be the best for now. see, first sem is already over :DD hope when i get back my results it wun be a disappointing one..i leave it to God ba.

fallen sick on sunday and for a very long time i've nv felt so xin ku.haha. been ages since i have had a high fever.cant concentrate during service,stayed in the toilet for an hr and not being able to swallow anything for the whole day.PLUS i had few diorrea and vomits before service. for de whole day my body was weak to the max and i thought i was gg to faint. at the end of the day,my conclusion: the OYSTER i ate on fri evening. faith told me someone ate and got food poisoning but it jux didnt went into my head.ppl! dun eat the food there or u'll landed up in hospital! thanked God that my body is usually stronger :DD and now im already on de way to recovery!!

RAW camp is near and im involved tis yr! like FINALLY!! althought i've been packed to my neck but since ive accepted tis responsibility, i'll give in my all. ppl, do support me ya? its my first time being part of such a BIG event afterall. and Christmas,it brings back memories of how i spent my Christmas a yr ago.how i wished to turn time back..the time when all of us were writing down all our wishes for Christmas on de golden papers hung along de river bay.

maybe i'll upload some pictures next time?? haha.

things that were bound to happen has happened. how are you now? still gg strong? if u wanna end the waiting pls tell me asap. so i can cry and cont on again. the memories ive shared wid u, i've nv forgotten abt it. auntie will still wait..till the coming of tat very special day. i miss u badly.

2008-07-17T17:50:00.003+08:00

orientation jux passed two days ago. and so far so good :)) got to noe quite a few friends and guess wat? my course is ALL GIRLS. YEAH!! haha.okie lah..really looking forward to sch starting on monday. metalsmithing and printmaking classes!! so cool!! gonna start my new life well and good! starting a new journey wid new friends and walking all de way thru. not the same as my stupid ite lifestyle. totally sux man. im glad i chose tis path..de path i wan and enjoy. ppl. i still dislike ur..for making my life miserable for the past one yr. thanx ar.. i'll be enjoying my life much better den in ite. haha.finally becoming a student there..my goodness..thank God. :))

2008-06-28T10:21:00.002+08:00

its been really terrible these two days. but qi ying says she'll stay strong no matter wat. althought the pain is still so terrible but she'll slowly let it go. :)) forget the past and those memories. when sch starts, it'll be a NEW beginning for me..God, let me learn how to be a obedient gal to You :)) and be an example to those ard me who needs an example yet a friend and big sister to follow. thank you for everything..

2008-06-26T13:26:00.004+08:00

it has been awhile since i have updated my post..

church camp is over..time to return back to reality and to face more challenges..but i even started to face it even before i reach home from the trip. so fast lah!! mm.guess my heart's bleeding now..dun ask me y cox i wun tell..maybe my recent lost of appetite is due to tis?? i was happy initially tat i lost a few kg suddenly cox i nv successfully lose tat much before..haha.but now, come to think of y i have lost.. im afraid it will become my comfort zone. i noe im not ready yet unknowingly i sank deeper.. its different tis time. de time set is not long yet it isnt tat short. u say u'll wait..and my answer to u is i'll wait also. alot of things i wanna say to u yet there is no chance to say..even de last thing i wanna do cant even be fulfilled. i can laugh crazily outside but im crying on de inside. it feels terrible. all i can say is.. hang on.

25 more days to my new life. 15 more days to go.

2008-05-28T15:22:00.002+08:00

he is confused so am i.
he is unsure so am i.
but let things remains just as it is.
rmb the things i've said to u.
who noes wat God has planned?

2008-05-07T11:44:00.002+08:00

tat old woman at home is nagging and everytime i almost shouted at her.
wat more she wans?!
she's also a child of a mother. if ur child is being scolded u like huh?!
bloody brainless idiot!! ****!! STILL NAGGING?!?
heartless freak who onli thinks abt herself.

im totally knocked out now.
anger and frustration fills my heart now.
y must i accept de things i do not wan to?
y must i be a somebody when im a nobody?
sadness and hurt doesnt seems to bother me anymore.
its like back to de past huh??
numbness??
wat's gonna happen next??

2008-04-09T23:42:00.003+08:00

my heart cries out badly for those,
but my hands are tired n heavy.

burdens of mine slowly releasing but burdens for others r slowly entering. my mind n flesh is weak now..i jux dun wish to move somehow. i dun wanna wait fer another event to spark my passion back but on another hand, i dunno wat to do except to wait for tat. i wan my life to be a meaningful one.i wan to see ppl carrying smiles wid my presence.yet,i seems tired of forcing myself to see tat happen. i dun wan force, i wan it pure. wif a heart tat is pure n worthy of ur love.

2008-04-07T23:41:00.004+08:00

watched "enchanted" at shareen's hse wif esther. then went eyebrow threading fer de first time. all i can say was OUCH. was amazed at my tolerance fer pain then..i didnt scream as expected. but i did manage to ouch out after de whole thing. my messy brows has been disturbing me fer quite sometime le and now..it looks neat and tidy.
found 4 kittens near my park.super cute and a lady who walked pass say she'll bring some food from her nearby house. we sat there awhile and they left first. a malay boy came and i found out he was de previous owner.he found them and brought home but his mom didnt want to keep them.so no choice but to abandon them. later on some malay kids grabbed them and i went home.if my parents loves pets, my ouse 'would have already become a pet center. but i've a wish and promised in my heart tat one day i'll fulfill it.

2008-03-30T22:01:00.002+08:00

i did smth amazing n unbelievable jux now. guess wat i ate fer dinner jux now??

3 drumsticks
1 breastmeat
1 whipped potato
1 coleslaw
2 cups of cokes

products of KFC

oh ya..and also a bowl of fried noodles as an appetizer.

but after all these,i dun feel a pinch of bloatiness. from den till now parents nv stopped naggin at me. cox they r full after onli half a piece each n sis onli ate 2 pieces.i want another whipped potato and mom dun give.haha.she say tat if she noe tis would happen, she wun even go bathe in de first place..jux to control me.dad says i need to go run 20 rounds ard de park to lose all those. well,i dun even noe i was eating tat much until mom asked me.

yesterday's ödd öne öut was awesome.although i was kinda disappointed before de outreach. but i feel tat it wasnt tat exciting after p&w. today's baptism service was a time of church to gather tgt to witness a moment where some of our brothers n sisters takin de step of faith to declare their love to God, committing themselves physically to walk deeper wid God.my district member is one of them. congrates to them and happy spiritual birthday!! haha.mine was dated abt 3yrs ago and 4 went in de sea at de same time.oh ya..it is de 1st baptism service held in our new building.really encouraging.no more dirty and smelly sea water, getting drenched in de rain nor stand under de scorching hot sun.haha.

im off to slack and digest all i've ate..it's been a tiring day.

2008-03-26T10:51:00.005+08:00

recent good friday pic taken at children church.

well.after much harassment from de past few weeks,i manage to get a hold on tis pic taken during jan.isnt it cool?? love my team loads~!

its coming to de end of march and im still slack at home facing de computer screen 24hrs. hah. i need a job BADLY..or im really gonna be growing a garden of mushrooms soon. last monday was really extreme. went to help out at clementi to give out flyers to 6 blocks DOOR TO DOOR. from 3 plus did till 7plus..drenched in de rain and charis sacrificing a fall. she says tat she feel like she was flying at tat moment.went through a block of "haunted" houses.almost scared de h*** outta us.we were standing at de lift deciding to do anot but i suddenly jux got de courage to give. izit God or jux my guts got bigger tat day? well, thanx to tat day i've got a major muscle soreness at de calves.dun usually hab pain over there n tis is ultimate. who out there would be so kind n caring n wanna train to be a better servant of God?? massage my feets den. good practice.

oh..y isnt anyone tagging? my entries too boring le izit?hah.dun like tat leh..i'll feel demoralised de..

2008-03-13T22:01:00.003+08:00

yeah yeah yeah~~!! im back to blog today. bringing a good news, IM BEING ACCEPTED TO NAFA!! haha.received a letter in de evening and was again filled wid fear and anxiety..prayed hard to God first and at de same time, i felt fer de letter..it's quite thick and i was think, "izit i passed??" cox if nv i wun receive a thick letter. i thank God fer tis..im really grateful. sch wun start till July and i can get out of tat sch once and fer all..it's wat i've been hoping fer. well, one thing i worry now is my promise to God.lol.i got stage fright u noe..but since i've given de promise i cant break it..He can gib me wat i wan but also can take away at once. haha. finally i lay down tis burden ONCE and fer ALL. GOOD BYE my friends.. i've PROVEN to u tat God is REAL in my life and im LIVING TESTIMONY of His work. all de attitudes, hurts and pains ur have given..i'll do my best to forget and rmb some of ur who r kind to me. im finally gg to where i dream of 3 yrs ago. GOOD BYE

2008-02-23T23:54:00.003+08:00

by God's miracle, i successfully passed MOE interview and proceed on to nafa's. tis is de last and the crucial stage before fulfilling my dream. i went fer de interview yesterday and was stressed to see many more ppl r much more potential den me. i felt inferior n my mind went blank. truthfully, i didnt give in my best shot yesterday..i was stunt by de qn and fer such a long time i didnt draw. if i get pass tis final rd, all glory be unto God. i'll testify in front of ppl which i've not done so. i promise n i wun break it. many things happened n one of de days smth overwhelmed me n i almost give up again. things ard me also didnt turn out to be smooth..my grp of ppl seems to drifted away from God so badly tat it's so hard to pull them back. God,fer how much longer u can bear to see them suffer? im getting tired of these n i wanna see a miracle fast..i dunno whether to cry or not to cry fer them..i feel so NORMAL..nothing extraordinary to expect. tat's bad..revive my heart n their hearts once more..enough is enough devil..one day im gonna make u PAY WID UR LIFE fer wat u've done.

2008-02-14T11:52:00.002+08:00

well,it's jux another v'day which pass by continuously fer years.haha. anyway, HAPPIE VALENTINES' DAY. hmm..my interview wasnt tat bad nor gd..there were times i stammer n there were times where im confident.de help penguin gave didnt came out! wasted my whole evening trying to rmb..well,maybe next time i can put it to use. was carrying my canvas round n round de whole morning..squeezing into crowded mrt and had ppl staring at mi from head to toe.how i hate tis feeling..i saw other candidates' art pieces,i felt threatened and demoralised..some look like 20 plus yrs and seems like they got better chances of being chosen. their pieces were very nice too. by how i persented myself in front of de panels,i guess de onli way i can get in is through God's miracles..results will be out in abt 2 weeks times. on de way home i was initially very upset.but all of a suddenly i dun feel sad at all.instead..peace fills my heart and i dun seem to care much abt de results.God,whether i pass or fail i'll still praise u. i feel like gg fer a run now..die..it sounds familiar. and if i run now i'll be getting a heat stroke cox its 12 noon. -_-'' maybe i'll wait till later ba.there's so much things gg through my mind.

2008-02-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

interview in another 9 an a half hours time. damn nervous. today's FOF prac.. half de class manage to finish all while half onli finish halfway..n CONGRATES im in de 2nd catagory. -.-'' i screwed up my machine weights n should be passing my free weights ba.. morning's gonna cont de prac but it clashes wid my interview!! wat should i do?? haha.im willing to go all de way fer tat interview but how am i gg to explain?? im already de target to be gunshot by my teachers any moment now..Lord,grant me de favour in de panels eyes..my gosh~im feeling demoralized after wat jess said in de morning. my confidence immediately dropped to de MAX..anyway,wish me all de best. hallellujah..God will be by my side, amen?? ARGH~!

2008-02-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

yo earth-lings!! HAPPIE CHINESE NEW YEAR~!! althought its kinda late >.< anyway, tis yr seems to be more boring then previous yr..went fer visitation w/o talking to anybody there..reunion dinner was fine.wid steamboat and teppanyaki..except wid my dad's sudden invitation of 3 china men from his workplace was here fer dinner too.but we sat at separate tables..is tat counted as reunion too??haha.sat went to polar's house fer visitation den to parrot's.. we ate and played some games..kinda slacking de whole day ba.. holidays seems to pass so fast as usual and 2molo im having a prac exam. most probably i'll either screw it up again or a jux pass grade. i admit tat i indeed dislike my course and dun like de feeling of doing prac wid ur body demo n remembering each and every step of it. praying hard tat my interview tis coming wed would be a success as im getting sick and tired of tis kinda lifestyle and its seriously affecting my walk wid God tremedously. i jux wanna get out asap n do smth i like and fer Him too. God,see my hearts' desire n i wanna get ur attention once more.de numbness n emptiness is coming back again wid a greater resistant to overcome. help, anyone??

btw,please tag cox my box is starting to collect dust le!!

2008-02-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

will there be more of this in the future??

2008-02-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

went fer W.A.D service on sat and had annual children ministry meeting. one video tat de child was crying out to God abt his prayer and i had goosebumps thoughout de whole clip. tears also swelled up in my eyes while listening to their simple and powerful prayer. i really hope to reach out to children in de poorer countries who needed de Lord so much..but..i dun intend to serve it on a permenent basic..my dream is to stay in singapore to teach. and on tat same nite, a miracle happened. a few days before, i took de first step towards my dream.on sat nite, i received a letter from moe. i opened de letter wid my heart pouncing rapidly and pray to God. as i read until de sentence, "im pleased to inform you that you are short-listed for interview." i immediately jumped up and scream fer joy! my gosh my gosh my gosh!! i cant believe it sia..de thing i've been worrying abt fer de pass few days is over..next is de interview part..im nervous abt it..wat am i gg to say in front of de panels?? ppl say honesty and sincerity is de best..oh man..its after cny..God,my dream of 2 yrs plus..is tat de direction u wan me to head?

2008-01-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

haix..i think i screwed up my FOF presentation ba..presented it yesterday..sorri team..its my fault. i dunno y but i jux cant present well in sch..maybe also cox i dislike presenting while demostrating wid body ba. its so distracting to me!!okie.jux say tat i hate tis course. its not my type of interest.i also dun y they have chosen me to enter and say tat many wanted to join tis course.i was thinking, 'y me?!' 2molo is gonna hab SM camp and i seriously super reluctant to go!! God,dun send me there!! haha.btw,i've already decided not to go. jux go see doc and take an mc..i hate de me now. always have to hide here and there..force myself to do de things i dun like and have to bear wif their vulgarities n scolding fer no reason.God,get me outta tis place soon! i jux wanna persue my dream n do smth meaningful wid my talent tat u hab given me.i hab a feeling tat im growing tired of all these soon and next? numbness?? wow..how fantastic..i hate ur.

2008-01-18T10:06:00.000+08:00

today's care bears' birthday. HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY!!haha..now is morning n im not in sch.y? cox im sick. haha. lame. anyway, went to a new place to cut my hair yesterday n i super love my hair! wanna see?? come find me and u'll see it. ^.^ highlighted it too. ur may find my hair is kinda short but i realise short hair really suits me much better.haha. mm..feeling so sleepy now..later goin fer my magic workshop. chaos~

2008-01-10T13:08:00.000+08:00

IM BACK!! haha..indeed de whole of dec i was super busy and onli till now i hab de time to blog. i really enjoyed my dec period..mission trip was awesome..youth/tertiary camp,ignite was breathtaking..x'mas celebration at new building n new yr countdount. finally can see fireworks without any effort. busiest dec in my whole lifetime! every memory was precious. who says christians r boring?? we've so many things to do.in de mist,more friends r made,more friendships being strengthen. x'mas is special to us..a joyful season. hmm..de new yr has began,more challenges to overcome,more faith n prayer.i've been serving children church on x'mas and tats more special to me.i dunno if possible but if there's a open way,i'll definitely go fer de mission in march. ^_^ i miss de kids there.

thoughts came running through in my mind ever since yesterday..y do ppl nowadays react so extreme towards friendship? even if my schoolmates sees tis post,im not afraid to say. cox i feel. along de way in life, we slowly master de skill of fishing. in order to catch a bait, u mux noe when to loosen de line n when to tighten de line. if dun follow, de bait will either go or de line will snap. u'll not gain any. haha..jux wanting to write in any case ppl read n they may find encouragement. many a times i find ur extremely childish. but sometimes,my heart cries out fer ur..i see de brokeness inside each heart yet..im trying to overcome my hatred. guys, when can ur stop being narrow minded and stop hurting ppl ard? im doing tis becox God loves all of u.

2007-11-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

tis one week plus i've been struggling to face my past and everything..many things which i hate to rmb seem to come back continuously. tears keep flowing cox of current situations and past hurts and fears.also noe tat wat is my strongest weakness tat caused me not being able to keep moving forward all these yrs. when all things r back is surely painful..but i noe tat God is telling mi not to run anymore nor ignore it..even to de extend of numbing myself..tis is de limit i can take..anymore i'll fall..i really hope tat tis coming mission trip will help mi to shed my old self and mould a new me.dun wan my first mission trip to jux come and go..haha.building of de tabunacle is de one thing i realize how preveiledge r we to be in de prescence of God. now i fully understand y some ppl jux keep saying those sentences and keep reminding us of de tabunacle.

someppl told me some stuffs which encourages mi alot.thanks. but tis illustration is de most awesome one:
when u fail God, u wun worry tat u'll hab to start all over again. jux like a baby, when he falls along de way, his dad will run over to him to pick him up, dust de dirts off him and encourage him tat he's doing fine and let him cont on walking..de dad wun drag him back to de starting point and say, "since u fall on de way,u'll hab to start all over again." de same wid our walk wid de Lord. when we fall, we dun not need to be ashamed nor worry tat everything needs to start all over again. cox God love us wid an unconditional love..even before He can hurt us..we've already hurt Him deeply.

all i can say now is: I love my Heavenly Father so much. ^.^

2007-11-15T16:10:00.000+08:00

On tuesday after collecting my canvas back from my sch..i've made my mind.i've finally found wat i really really wan in life. to persue my passion and tat i've always wanted.i noe i wun regret de choice i've made tis time..de day which i'll be breaking out of tis sickening jail.

2007-11-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

wasnt a smooth and pleasant day fer me yesterday..maybe is really an misunderstanding.sorry..my heart and emotions were being stretched to another limit. tis time round i find it even harder to breathe my way through the days ahead.im grateful fer de effort ur hab done..really appreciate it ^.^ but on another hand,tat misunderstanding caused de walls to thicken and i fear to thanked ur face to face in case i didnt get any response. the stress within me ur built upon each and everyday caused me to feel even heavier by the day..i held back my tears,being afraid of provoking ur..i dun get it..y do i feel tis way? y am i so afraid of ur till i gib myself so much stress unknowingly? wat if one day i left without telling anyone? will ur even care?tried so hard to smile..im losing my personality..tis is definitely not me. where's de cheerful,sporty n daring qi ying? where is tat ah ma whom many depended on? my friends..my heart is crying out..bitterly crying fer a way out..God,are u even listening to me? some of ur r being kind to mi but wat abt de others? u cant make a clap wid one hand..e6 gals..i jux miss ur so so much today..i need a shoulder to lean on badly yet..im afraid to ask.."wat am i suppose to do?" is one of my daily qn to God. Help me.

2007-11-01T12:06:00.000+08:00

oh man..how long i've not written in tis blog le..ever since sch starts..i hab no time fer com..werid timetables..mm..im jux getting so sick and tired of de attitudes ard mi..am i a trash to be thrown ard? or a guinea pig to be used?each day i hab to swallow down my tears n all ur nonsense. i tried so hard to be among ur..but de river is too wide fer mi to cross over..cant ur jux concern more abt me? everyday i pray fer God to gib mi strength and let mi see miracles.praying fer each and every one's hurts and pains to be removed and be joyful each day..praying tat everyday will jux past fast tis few yrs and get over it.praying tat one day i'll be able to reveal myself to ur de real me and be free among ur.i prayed till im so tired and i nearly quit tat day..i noe tis may sound unpleasant but i really cant hold it out much longer..y mux ur treat me like tis..i dun deserve any of ur nonsense..wat's de difference between mi and ur? felt im gonna hab a split personality soon..my attitude towards others and ur r so much different till i cant believe it myself.

2007-10-08T16:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to escape in de afternoon to play n really enjoyed myself..oh..hab uploaded de neoprints which took on sat..too bad i didnt hab de one which all of us squeezed in to take..onli de one which we gals took..will try to upload it next time.

2007-10-07T00:08:00.000+08:00

jux reached home and bathe after a fun n memorable day. today's a special day to someone whom i've known fer 4 yrs..5th le n still counting..yes~! HAPPY 17th B'DAE TO DEAR ESTHER!! hope she enjoy her day jux now..

morning woke up at 10 plus and went to accomplish a task..haha..den went straight to co to help out there..study week.once i reached there..there seems nothing fer mi to do..roam ard here n there till i found some fun things to do. ended up playing someone's ds de whole time there..few of de ppl studying there got curious n we took turns to play..de pro came to play too n we're making a bunch of noises..opps >.<>

headed to TM's fish n Co to celebrate..total of 13 ppl went..de food there were filling n i cant even finish half of it..ended up kenna suan by some.. T.T arranged a "b'dae cheer" fer her n she had to stand on de chair in front of de whole restaurant while de rest of us have to wear some werido hairdo which most of us hid underneath de tablecloth..haha..de cheer by de fish n Co crews were loud! i mean it! everyone was looking over at our direction including those passer-bys outside..later on another table hab de same thing as us but theirs aint tat loud. haha.. esther was totally embarrassed..do it again next yr. Xp glad tat de present we gave touched her..she's almost in tears..haha.

decided to take neoprints and all squeezed in to fit into de camera..some funni shots were taken. like how de b'dae gal disappeared from de one of de shots..haha. den we 5 gals took our own photos and turned out fantastic..when was de last time we take neoprints tgt?? a yr ago?? i intended to stuff de photos inside my wallet and to find out my wallet is missing!! ran back to fish n Co to find it as it was de last place i took it out. thanked God it was underneath de table we sat..haha..everyone rushed back there becox of mi..felt guilty n thankful..today's celebration is a success!!

went to inter mac to slack awhile den all headed home..2molo afternoon still meeting some to go escape to play.haha..im broke man..n i dun wanna go back to sch..argh!! tis is my true self. felt so cagged up in sch not being able to be myself..forget it..let mi jux enjoy my remaining one week of holiday ba..

2007-10-04T22:40:00.001+08:00

wishing a HAPPY B'DAE TO FAITH!! although its kinda belated..haha. woah~! super happy yesterday..got back my results..someone actually reminded mi when she asked fer my GPA.i was shocked to find my results beyond my expectation..i got a 3!! all thanx to God.i've skipped half of my first semester n my results aint tat bad.i thought im gonna fail like shit. next aim,3.5. written previously tat i've destroyed my whole exam but i got all Bs. cool~ mux strive even harder in de next half yr.

today was out since afternoon till 8.30..went fer lunch wid few of my sec sch friends..sorri fer being late :P went to pizza hut and headed to mac to accomplish our task. counted as accomplished ba..haha. den next think of where to kill time as it's still early..ended up goin pasir ris to catch prawns. walao..waste my 7 bucks to catch 2 prawns.. -.-'' but heng got quite a num of ppl there so can split cost. fish till abt 6 den went to de playground nearby to play swing.ended up playing till 7..haha..some funni scenes there. we disturb each other. went to accompany them fer dinner and make it home fer my 9 o'clock drama. sad tat every friday i cant get to watch it. always hab de thought of stayin at home tempting mi..so hard to resist.

tis coming sat going to meet those who went to kevin's hse last week fer a special event..can joke like mad again..guys doin stupid and funni things..den sun afternoon might be heading off to escape to enjoy my remaining holiday wid those bunch of ppl again.. looking forward to it ^.^

2007-09-24T23:56:00.001+08:00

think smth's wrong wif tis blog..sometimes i cant publish my post n always kenna wash blank.. -.-'' i hab to type over again..i even forget wat i wanna type le..

2molo's de day which i've been waiting n looking forward to during de holidays..staying over at my friends' house wid de gang till thursday..hope to enjoy and even treasure it as part of my memory..rmb de good ole' times we have had during sec sch days..some of us even illegally "da bao" chicken rice to class to makan n play poker!!2molo is a rare chance tat we'll hab a good get tgt..some ppl will go crazy during tat period of time.haha.

recently i found out tat i actually had quite a few regular customers coming in to view.haha. thanx alot ar..i thought onli little will come n view.rmb to tag me lah..i lazy to dust my tag box.. haha. well,tats all fer now..gtg. chaos~

2007-09-19T11:06:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE keeps ranting at me to update tis blog..so here i am to..hehe. yesterday i had quite a nite..jux tat its quite boring as we've got no place to go slack. morning woke up at 4.30 and i jux cant sleep! my eyes r WIDE WIDE OPEN. O.O den 6 plus when my whole family is up i rush to my parents room to see if i can sleep.haha..more comfy mah..jux after my siblings n dad went out,mom shouted, "COCKROACH!!" in tat instant,i jumped to my knees..yup.a BIG roach was at de wall near de reading lamp..asked maid to catch it.de roach was stuck in between de switch and de wall so we hab to use baygon.lol. it jump onto my maid's hand and off to my mom's bag. took de bag away n thought de roach left and crawled on de floor.so,both of them went hoping up n down. haha.funni scene. >.< my mom got a fright when she saw tat de roach was actually on her bag..haha.

evening came and met wid my sch freinds to eat..almost 13 ppl including a teacher.haha. realized de steamboat restaurant we went i did went wid some of my sec sch friends before..haha.missed de sauce there..we ate n ate n ate..from 7 plus till abt 9..plates of food n tang hoon in de soup. but i still feel as if i've eaten nothing after dinner..my stomach is still far from calling red alert..oh well..we hang ard shaw tower as we dunno where to go next..den,some went off for their own activities..de remaining ppl decided to go clark quay by foot. O.o walk n walk n walk..keep taking pics along de way..seems like we'll be taking ages to reach our destination.. ended up stopping at "durain" there to enjoy de scenery. some of us saw a shooting star..or izit some meteor..but it did fall across de sky and disappear into thin air..my mind went blank at firat not knowing wat to wish fer..but i manage to wish, "God,may u bless me." hmm..will He?? haha.mux believe..took some photo and went to catch de last few trains to head fer home. mm..i lazy to upload de photo now lah..maybe in de next post ba..haha..kinda lazy during de holiday season. chaos~

2007-09-10T16:23:00.000+08:00

kinda lazy to blog these days..super tired..jux finished one exam today..think i'll screw it up quite badly..haix..de results of last min revision. God help me!! another one's on tis coming wed and i'll be having my holidays lo~ really looking forward to 25 sep..gonna hab a fun time.haha. hmm..jux turning back de time to last sat..i went to IMH wif my group..oh man..de first time i step in..kinda feeling excited..den later, i was being selected to go to de ward and bring de patients down..broke out in cold sweat once i saw them..super nervous.but one funni thing said by de in-charge before tat..if u wanna test if u're friendly anot,step into de ward.if many crowd ard u,u're being well-liked.if not,none will even approach u. LOL funni way of testing. hmm..10 of them went wid us..one even wan to go but de nurses stopped her..sad..she wasnt allowed.glad im taking care of de females..scare of de males ar..haha..

we had singing, makin of lanterns and magic performance by our ppl.think they quite enjoy it ba..den..de bad thing happened..my left leg was numbed from sittin on de floor and we hab to immediately take them up to their wards..i stood up,went to help a lady beside mi to stand and i bend my ankle..not really de ankle lah..near it..i realized i hurt my ankle wheni feel a sharp pain..idiotic..plus de numbness i dunno how serious i've hurt it..was swollen yesterday..limping to service and guess wat,i found out i've got company! haha. after de visitation to IMH some went to eat.den to vivo..it was boring so went to de top to play water..it's fun..but i didnt realise tat i was soaking my feet in de water.. -.-'' make my injury worst..guess im really super gong..

oh well..jux end here ba..still gotta go back to studyin..charis ar..i'll do de lame thing next time ba.haha.kinda busy now..pai sey xP

2007-08-31T02:12:00.000+08:00

finally,finally,finally.. one heavy burden was being lifted off my shoulders yesterday..yes..it's over..real over..ISS project which i've been so pissed off and tired of is being publicly delared done! 1st time sitting in a room fer a lesson fer almost 4 hrs! some fell asleep while some still hab de energy to listen to de presentations by 7 other groups(more has yet to come). time fer a celebration tis coming weekend..haha..but another one has yet to come. EXAMS. it's getting nearer and nearer by the day..but wid de project cleared,i can jux focus on my exams..ppl out there! if ur hab seen tis post and saw my needs,pray fer mi! wun ya?? it's kinda short fer today but i'll be free fer a month after tat and will be habing a crazy time! till den ur ppl can chio me out le..haha.teacher's day celebration later..dun think many of my classmates will be back..oh well..jux go there to collect my precious master piece..den later on to hab lunch and catch up with some of them. Xp off to bed now. ^.^

2007-08-29T00:59:00.000+08:00

didnt hab de time to blog until today. still busy wid project and exams though..well, all i can rmb now is i had a great evening last sunday.joking ard de dinner table and creating alot of unwanted noise. haha..hope to enjoy more of these in de future.went fer army half marathon tat day.reached sch gate at 2.45am.early huh?? held at east coast and my course was involved in helping out wid some kinda experiment from DSO..kinda fun lah..watching de runners..my job is to collect de bottles our selected runners drank and bla,bla,bla..oh,did anyone noe abt de accident? there was one guy who collapsed n died after finishing de race..i think he should be one of de 3 runners fighting fer 1st or de few after tat..i didnt noe abt tat until someone came n told mi de next day in sch.of cox i was shocked.

ok.my main gossip today is abt my ankle.wat's so nice abt it? yea..its nice when it jux swells up in de morning and looks like a pig's leg at nite.serious.i did not sprain my ankle,nono. it itch..my thigh was also part of de victim..culprit? de mozzie i guess..should be a poisonous one ba..1st time encounter..got a pic here..

notice it??my right ankle. it's worst at nite..

where got mosquito bite until like tat de..insanity..i think de mozzie likes me very much.well..jux now i glance through de news on tv and got to noe abt de forest fire in greece..and there is a particular news abt it tat captures my heart. a mother n her 4 children r found dead and burn. their bodies were still in de position of hugging each other tight..it jux makes my heart breaks..mother's love..none can compare.. mux thank God tat im born in s'pore.

watched evans almighty on windows jux now..funni and nice movie. my bro manage to get it from someone..haha..it's not even screen in cinemas yet..opps.pirated vcd >.< God issued a commandment XI "Thou shall do the dance." dun get it? go watch it and u'll get it. haha. exams r coming in 12 days time..super fast lo..haben even started revising for it..DIE..wed(izit today?) got ISS test..also DIE..i'll hab to squeeze all de info into my half dead brain in de morning lo..haix..stress ar..so many things fer me to do..even someone say tat she seldom sees me online le..waa..during de one mth holiday mux meet up wid my friends and catch up wif them le..miss them so much..should organise a bbq again?? staying up overnight at ppl's house and do all de silly things like de old days?? it sure was fun den..gotta stop here le..my brain is warning me tat it's closing de business le..chaos~

2007-08-21T21:59:00.000+08:00

my struggles no one see.
my cry no one hears.
my pain no one feels.
my effort no one knows.

my secret discovered.i've lost my track..life seems to grow boring..i began to feel scare and run away.i've lost my confidence to carry on.my skin isnt thick enough.i cried hard in a corner struggling to control. i noe i cant cont to stay as it is..i need to move forward. tis is growing more n more sickening by de day..i wanna scream! i wanna shout! ENOUGH. i had it. dun make mi ROAR while i still can manage to control.

2007-08-17T00:19:00.000+08:00

i suddenly hab de tendency to share tis story here now..noe so of ur hab heard or read abt it.tats good. :)) but let mi share to those who dont. ;)

FOOTPRINTS

One night a man had a dream.He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord.Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonged to him,and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him amd he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

"The Lord replied, "My precious child, I love you and i would never leave you. During your times of trials and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints,it was then that I carried you."

touching?? hope so..hmm..tis passage has always been my source of strength when im weak..wats urs when u're weak? there has never been a person who'd pay such a heavy price fer mi and loved mi so much. only Him can save mi..He's de one and only way to eternity..

2007-08-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

guess i didnt blog fer a long time eh? kinda lazy nowadays..might ended up MIA fer few mths or a yr again.haha.more ups and downs de whole of one week..wats wrong man?? hmm..kinda restricting myself all along?self-centered?timid?many thoughts running through my mind..but anyway,he's gonna be back TML!! oh man.cant wait to see him again.haha.see de tag box.care bear tagged mi! okie.i was pretty shock to see tat..especially at ard 2 plus in de middle of the nite.

oh..hab been down on my luck tis week ba..lost my precious watch T.T and my phone had gone quite bonkers..went to repair it jux now and when it was in de lady's hand..it started working again. !%#&^$!#@* waste my trip..on my way to repair center..smth seems to happen at tamp mrt..de service got disturbed and saw police,ambulance there..wonder wat had happened.but ppl r jux so curious.haha..they keep squeezing in to take a look..siao.next day see newspaper can le mah..-.- haix..typical singaporeans.. turning back de time..i lost my watch on thursday?? mom lectured mi like mad and i got another one after tat.haha.kinda funni to buy back almost de same watch..ask mi and i'll tell..lol. i jux glanced through my tv programme and can anyone believe there is white koala? super beautiful!!

today reached sch at 4am..nincompoop..haha..it was my first time gg to sch tat early..didnt sleep at nite and serene was over at my house..got de marathon thingy and i wanna change my shirt..its too big..T.T reached home at abt 9 plus a.m and slept till afternoon to go back sch to take my test.. it was okie lah..should be able to pass but how good izit depends on God lo..hao le..really,really looking forward to tml..and thursday..it'll be so much fun! ^.^ gtg now.

2007-08-02T10:56:00.000+08:00

wondering y im still at home?haha..nvm..wanna wish someone a happy b'dae. HAPPY 21st B'DAE POLAR BEAR! wesley lah..he looks chirpy yesterday..noe its kinda belated but its de heart tat counts rite? watever..next week is den de offical celebration..hmm.hab nothing much to blog abt fer now..except tat my dear leader is coming back in a week's time.finally..not tat long n not tat short..hao ba.end here..gg to watch my k drama le. >.<

2007-07-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

today wasnt tat bad..nor tat good either..had role play and test..forced myself to get up early to even hope tat one day things will change ard mi.both my role play n test i think hab a high possibility tat i'll not make it.oh well,leave it all up to Him le.
yesterday met up wid few of my sec sch friends.MISS YA LOTS!! talk quite abit abt our life here n there..i kinda regret tat i didnt choose my passion. but nvm..already half way le.finish it up ba. kinda sad now..can imagine someone whom u see everyday at home wrote smth bad abt u behind ur back n u found it out urself?? kinda like being backstabbed?? dun even get wats gg on n jumped into conclusion. feeling of being trampled all over.damn shag~anyone care to make mi happy? even a sweet?? yesterday's desmond's b'dae.HAPPY 17th B'DAE! 2molo's gonna be another one..gg broke le..Xp haix..super hate tis kinda feeling now..i really cant believe it..

2007-07-26T11:10:00.000+08:00

oh man!! guess wat?? i cant believe wat has happened yesterday evening. one of de contacts was uncontactable since monday??tuesday?? she onli manage to leave a detail of hers wid us and so..CH n i decided to go to her sch to gib it a try.on my way there..im thinking.."qy,u're nuts or wat?u has always nv bother abt tis kinda thing and even go to tis extend.siao ar?" indeed,i was shocked..was at her sch gate a little later and was thinking.."shits..hab she gone off?or is she still in sch??" i cant imagine myself pacing up n down de next min praying fer her.CH came later n we waited fer 30 mins..we almost gave up but den..we saw a big grp of students at de top lvl and there was a glimsp of hope.next min,CH received a phone call from an unknown no. it was her..thank God ^.^ if we nv wait and she nv call..maybe all these would nv had happened.

watched a movie called "facing the giants" it was awesome..it really boost my confidence alot but at de same time..i scare i would lose it fast..but den,back at home another miracle kinda happened..i was like 'blur' when bro told me my mp3 was functioning properly..what?! and tat was true. i jux cant contain my joy tat moment.kept jumping n screaming abt my house fer like 10 mins?? haha..i was so stunned..i dun deserve tis kinda grace fer all i've done..i noe tat mp3 working again isnt quite a big deal but it has been spoiled fer like almost 5 days?? and it jux suddenly like come back to life?? is tat a miracle from God? so so touched..so ppl out there, im giving my testimony of tis week to u! when u pray to Him,he really answers when u least expected.but dun gib up! He'll fill u to de abundance one day till u cant contain it.its no joke.it really happened. ^.^

*dare to face de giants of ur life now.u may think they're big but SOMEONE up there is bigger den anyone of them!so y do u fear?

2007-07-21T10:29:00.000+08:00

my day today started off reEal BAD~
i finally manage to pull my up to jog..surprising eh? prepared myself,wear my shoes and was ready to get my day started.but while i was waiting fer my lift,i realized my mp3 had crushed.omg! CRUSHED?! all de songs r in there! i thought tat de battery might been dead so ran home to re-charged it..sadly..no responds..pray n pray n pray but it jux wun work!! and i rmb..my warranty has ended a long time ago.. -.-'' shit..now wat..my parent's SO gonna KILL me..nvm..no choice den i took my phone out lor..n when i was abt to step out of home..de sky grew dark and BOO! it rain.. -.-'' super unlucky rite?!? wat de heck is gg on..now..de day is bright but de rain is still pouring down..jux when i make de effort to JOG! sickening..real sickening..my mood is spoiled.