Wednesday, November 07, 2007
00:04
wasnt a smooth and pleasant day fer me yesterday..maybe is really an misunderstanding.sorry..my heart and emotions were being stretched to another limit. tis time round i find it even harder to breathe my way through the days ahead.im grateful fer de effort ur hab done..really appreciate it ^.^ but on another hand,tat misunderstanding caused de walls to thicken and i fear to thanked ur face to face in case i didnt get any response. the stress within me ur built upon each and everyday caused me to feel even heavier by the day..i held back my tears,being afraid of provoking ur..i dun get it..y do i feel tis way? y am i so afraid of ur till i gib myself so much stress unknowingly? wat if one day i left without telling anyone? will ur even care?tried so hard to smile..im losing my personality..tis is definitely not me. where's de cheerful,sporty n daring qi ying? where is tat ah ma whom many depended on? my friends..my heart is crying out..bitterly crying fer a way out..God,are u even listening to me? some of ur r being kind to mi but wat abt de others? u cant make a clap wid one hand..e6 gals..i jux miss ur so so much today..i need a shoulder to lean on badly yet..im afraid to ask.."wat am i suppose to do?" is one of my daily qn to God. Help me.